Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Good News and Bad News

I got a bit of bad news this week, I didn't get an interview for the big job I applied for way back in February. I was quite surprised (because of course in my head I was already working there, but also because I truly felt I was qualified) and of course, I was disappointed.

I felt like I let myself down, and my husband and our would-be family. I had a bit of a cry and got some comfort from my husband and the puppies. We talked about how a better paying job would give us more money, but definitely less freedom (since I would likely have to go to an office environment every day, rather than working from home as I do now).

The truth is, I worked very hard on my application for the job and the 40 hour test they sent me to complete. I tried my best and that didn't end up being good enough (for whatever reason). If it didn't work out, there must be a reason why it didn't work out. All is not lost, I still have a good job with benefits and freedoms not often available. So, I've decided that even though it didn't work out, I tried my very best and I don't need to feel like I let anyone down.

The good news is that today (totally coincidentally and very spur-of-the-moment) I had my annual performance evaluation. I did well. They like me. They are happy with my progress and want me to stay (it's a permanent job, but it is still nice to hear they find me a valuable asset). I also got a nice sized raise, bigger than I expected given that the economy is still recovering and many, many, many companies are not give raises at all.

I'll continue to look for another job, I guess, but if it doesn't work out, I think it'll be okay. Many, many, many people raise families with less than we already have and I never want to be one of those people who always needs more, more, more.

2 comments:

  1. ((hugs)) from me and Dylan. I hope you feel better. And congrats on being a valuable asset! I like you too!

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  2. I'm sorry to hear this! Applying to Government of Canada jobs (and writing the exams) is like a whole other skill you need to develop. If it is something you still want to pursue, practice will help, and you will get better at it.

    If you ever apply for another job, please feel free to send me an email and I will do what I can to help - I have been able to help a few friends get government jobs this way.

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